oh man.

so david. i think it's really hard to explain him. lol. he's amazing. even thinking about him now i have butterflies in my stomach. i get them ever time i think about him and when i know i'm going to see him. he's really funny. he's constantly making me laugh. he has an amazing relationship with God which is great. he works with jr. high schoolers and has for a long time. he makes these funny faces when he reacts to something and they make me laugh really hard. i try to not laugh because i don't want him to think i'm laughing at him. but ti's too funny to not. lol. he loves his family. it seems like we have a lot in common. every time i say something about my family he always says yeah mine too and it's the same when he talks about his family. 

tonight for some reason the butterflies wouldn't go away. every time i looked at him or heard him talking my face would turn red. i don't know how i can explain my feelings about him, i actually don't think i can. he makes me laugh and smile and think about so many different things. he's just great. when he talks about praying for his future wife, i get weak in my knees. just knowing how important it is to him and how much he looks forward to it. knowing that he prays for that person all the time is amazing.

i just don't know anymore. i honestly think i'm going insane over him. he just makes me happy. i just need to pray so much. i need to get in the habit of praying. i need to get my relationship with God right. i need to seek His face and he will bring everything into place. i won't be able to have a good relationship with a guy if my relationship with God isn't right. i need to stop the stupid things i do and focus on God. i need to get desperate, on my knees and seek God's face.

i need to get my mind off of david and on God. i can't have david on my mind all the time because it distracts me from God.